Down

I have a serious addiction to food. I like it way too much. I did so well yesterday on this whole diet thing. We went to Costco and I grabbed a Chicken Ceaser Salad which was delicious. We stopped by Chili's to get my mom some chips and salsa. She loves it, as do I. You could tell that I love it because I devoured alot of chips, salsa, and queso. I have a problem! I try not to eat past 8 pm. That failed last night too. After we saw the play it was time to go home. I had to have my last serving of chips and salsa. You see, that is why I can't be around that stuff. Self control is hard! What can I do to help me have more of this? This morning started off with the usual bagel sandwich, I seriously love those things! Ben and I are heading to the temple tonight. I am going to attempt to make Gyro's tonight for dinner. This shall be fun...stay tuned!

It's Monday

Man, time flies on the weekends, and I didn't even get around to posting at all Friday, Saturday, or Sunday. It was a good weekend. I ate alot on Sunday since it was the Bennion Family Party. We had a special fast for my dad and after church all I could think about was food so Ben and I broke our fast. It was good to eat some good food. This morning I started off the morning with egg whites, turkey bacon, on a bagel thin. I love those mornings and I find that I crave these sweets little 210 calorie foods. It's all about making good food choices. I had a handful of grapes around 11:00 am and enjoyed some leftover roast beef for lunch. For my afternoon snack I'll grab a handful of carrots. We are going to The Phantom of the Opera tonight at BEHS which I am stoked about. They say that it is fabulous. I can't wait. My mom is making BBQ cups for dinner tonight, I am not too found of them so I might stop at Maddox and get myself a Chef Salad. I also might just grab a quick ceaser salad. I need to go to the Harmon's by me and request that they stock Bernstein's Creamy Ceasear dressing. This dressing had no sugar in it. Now, that is what I like to see!! Also, while Bri was down for his nap, I did the Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. It kicked my butt!! Tomorrow I am going to go running. I need to get going on running because I am looking into the 5k in April. :)

I am alive, but it hurts!

After making myself get up this morning I could barely walk. The back of my calves are killing me. I feel like going for a really long walk this morning with Brighton strapped in the stroller. So that is probably what we'll head out doing when I am done here. I get on the scale each morning and have been slightly discouraged at what I have been seeing. I know this is all going to take time, and I am fine with that. I also know that my food selections have not been the best lately I am working on that, that is why I am here, right? As I am typing along I am eating a banana. Did you know that banana's are somewhat high in sugar? I learned all the fruits I like are not necessarily the better choice when it comes to selecting fruit in the grocery store. Pretty much all of the fruit I really enjoy are really high in natural sugars...BOO! Work is on the agenda again today. I'll see ya all later tonight to finish out the night.
So it is way to early in the morning but I never got around to finishing the day yesterday. After work I was completely exhausted, came home and crashed. After running/walking yesterday I could barely move after I put Bri down for his nap. I was literally crawling to the bathroom, my calves are still killing me. I feel alot better when I am up and moving but to get up is the real test. Let's finish out the day yesterday. I had two big bowls of salad for lunch with some italian dressing on them. It was delicious and I did not feel guilty for having two bowls full. I snacked on some carrots and finished the night off with a cup full of Spaghetti. Now, if most of my days would look like this, I would be in good shape. Here's to continuing my journey :)

Day 3

This morning Brighton and I got started rather early. Bri had another doctor's appointment at 9:15 this morning due to the fact that he has developed a rash all over his body. It started on his neck and back which we thought was caused by his helmet. After the doctor checked him out, he thinks that it is a bacterial infection throughout his whole body and now he has another ear infection. I think after the helmet is over with I would not be the least bit surprised to see tubes go in his ears. Poor little guy! This morning I started off the morning by finishing the last bit of cantaloupe off and headed out the door. After our appointment we headed straight to Brigham so that my mom could show me what she does when she lifts weight. Mom was not gentle on me at all. At one point my arms and legs felt like Jello! She worked me out for a good hour, and I was completely beat by the end of the hour, I will be feeling it tomorrow, who knows, I might be typing my blog from my bed tomorrow since I probably won't be able to move. After working out I developed quite the appetite I swear I devoure 5 lbs of roast beef my mom had left over from Arby's. I was good though, I ate it without the bun, but man, I was starving!!! After that I was still starving. I blame myself for the fact that I got the need for my mom's salsa. I blame my bad habits on myself, no one else. This is why this blog is good for me. I blame no one for my poor food choices but myself. I admit I shouldn't have ate the chips and salsa and this is why I am here, to stop that need for non nutritious food. I had to work tonight so I came straight to the theatre, after out first shows started I headed to the store to pick up Bri's pescription and headed back home to drop the medicine off and get me some dinner. I quickly grabbed the little bit of stir fry leftovers and a flatout wrap for dinner. I warmed that up after getting back to the theatre and finished my meals for the night. Still at work for night, but am looking forward to crashing into my bed when I get home. Here's to hopefully being able to move tomorrow :)

Day 2

Last night was the first night Ben and I worked out together. We did Billy Blanks Tae-bo Amped. I laughed for about the first fifteen minutes because of Ben. I don't know why but I just had the giggles while working out with Ben. After a while I decided to put Ben's ipod in my ears so I could focus a little bit better, and that totally worked!
Ben got tired and quit working out but he did finish the cool down with me. He said to me that he thinks that he is just going to run instead of doing the workout videos with me. We'll see what he ends up doing tonight with me :)
Already this morning I had a yummy bagel sandwich...which consisted of a bagel thin which is surprisingly 110 calories, 1/4 cup of egg whites, and 2 pieces of turkey bacon with a dash of salt and pepper. It was yummy to say the least! I'll be back later to finish out the day. Man my baby is onery!
Well, the day is finished. Ben is laying on the couch watching the election results as I type away. For snack today I had a bowl full of cantaloupe and a Kashi granola bar. After my day today, I decided that I needed to go out. We haven't been out to eat for a long time. It was nice to go out. I had a chicken ceaser salad...BUT alot of Chili's chips and salsa...OOPS!! We all know how easy it is to fall off the bandwagon. :(
I came home after a meeting at work and did a three mile workout which kicked my butt! I feel good though as I sit here and blog. Who doesn't feel good after a good workout? Oh by the way, I lost my workout partner :( Ben said there was no way he was going to work out with me tonight. He's not the one that needs to lose the weight, it's me so I'm not too bummed about it.
Earlier today, my cousin Megann text me and told me that we could train together...yay! I love that idea! She lives in Tennesse and wants to train for a half marathon. She is an amazing person. She raced in the LOTOJA race this past summer. Now you can see why she totally rocks! She is going to keep me in line, which I am grateful for. Thanks Meg!
Well, it is late and Brighton has to go to the doctor AGAIN tomorrow for his rash on his face which is going down onto his chest. It's strange! So I better get to bed. Nighty Night!!!!

My New Journey

Let me just start out by saying I had all of this first post written out, but as I went to save and post the blog something happened with my computer and it was gone, just like that! Grrr!!!
What a great analogy that I think that was. Just like eating healthy and exercsing everyone still has those Grrr days! Our bodies are amazing!
So, why are you here? Let me start out by telling you why I am here. After having my son Brighton I was feeling good about myself, feeling alright in my body, and somehow the lbs started shedding off because I was nursing Brighton. It was awesome! I did not love the fact that we had a rough go when we first started breastfeeding Brighton because he was tongue tied, and so that caused some major soreness on my end of things. From day one, I was struggling with breastfeeding. As Brighton grew my milk supply was lowering. He would drain me in about five minutes. When Brighton was six months old, I stopped nursing him, but continued to eat the way I had while I was nursing. Hence the reason the new lifesyle that I needed to start immediately.
I decided to go on HCG I know that this is a major conterversy issue for some. I had tried HCG previously about two years ago, and had success. So when I decided to do it again. Now, this is my personal opinion, you can have different opinions, or issues about this weight loss aide, but for me, it works. We are all entitled to our own choices, right?
On October 4th 2010, I started HCG the best part about the diet LOADING!!!! For three days straight, I ate, ate, and ate. It rocked! Then the hard part came but I made it through, and here I am today. I took my last dose of HCG on Tuesday October 26th around 11 am. For the next two days I would do the Low Calorie Diet without the HCG. Easy Peasy!! The next phase of the diet is no sugar and no startch. I could of easily continued doing this but I decided before starting the hcg that I was going to continue the next phase of my "lifestyle" by myself. I would do it without the aide of anything. I would do it myself. Friday I was successful and didn't eat much. Saturday and Sunday were a different story. I indulged BIG TIME! It felt good. I like food, what can I say??
So, here I am starting today to start that lifestlye that I have wanted for years now. This journey is going to be good. It is going to be fun, theraputic, and hard. But, I know I can do hard things. We all can do hard things!! Just Remember that and you'll be fine in life :)
I will try and post at the end of the nights. That way I can journal what I eat, what exercise I did that, and other random things you may want to know about my very interesting life ;)
11/01/2010-Started the morning out with a big yummy bowl of cantaloupe. It was delicious I seriously love that fruit. I was preoccupied during the day with Brighton, cleaning our messy house, and grocery shopping for healthier items. By the time I got done with all of those chores. I decided I wanted a big salad. Unfortunately I knew it was too close to dinner time so I couldn't have a salad so I settled for a few Nalley Pickles. Yummy! For dinner I quickly made some store bought stir fry, and cooked up some brown rice and just like that, dinner was made. We had some left over pineapple so we enjoyed that with our stir fry.
Brighton has gone down for the night, so tonight marks the first night Ben and I will be attempting to workout together. Tonight we will do Tae-bo amped. My husband might not like me much anymore after I do this workout because I will sweat like a pig  ;)
Have a great night!